Made for Mucho Más

A year ago today I went into labor at 6:00am. I had a peaceful, beautiful time at home with my husband, mom, friends and doula preparing for Troy's entrance into this world. We talked, walked around Austin College, prayed and then after being in bathtub for quite a while we decided it was time to go to the hospital- at 11:00pm. And that's when terrible happened. I have blurs of memories laboring in the bathroom and then going through painful check-ups just to tell me... I was still at a 7 in dilation. You see, I had plans to have a non-medicated natural birth, but that wasn't going to happen at this hospital. Not for a new mother, not with these doctors. I should've known better, but I didn't know.  After long hours of laboring hard and finally pushing for an hour and no baby- I was sent to the operation room: for a c-section. Troy was born at 10: 26pm: beautiful, healthy, perfect at 9lbs, 9oz.  I will never know if a natural birth was truly a possibility for my b...

I've been memorizing scripture as one of my goals for the year 2015. Every couple weeks, I ask God to lead me to the next verse to memorize. It is usually a lesson He is teaching me during that time frame. Once I have my new verse, I write it in a little spiral notebook I carry with me. Then, I can go back and read it until I feel that I have it memorized. I also write it on my bathroom mirror so that I can see it every time I get ready (It also encourages some interesting conversations/discussions with my husband!). My current verse comes from 2 Corinthians 12:9. Paul is saying that he has a thorn in his flesh and has asked God to take it away multiple times. This is God's answer to Paul: "But He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."   Wow. God said NO... but He had a better alternative: I, will make perfect in your weakness . This is BIG for me, because I tend to be a perfectionist with myself. If somethi...

In my journey to a healthier self, I've met with defeat many a times. Sometimes, food temptations are stronger than my will so I encounter a fail. Other times, life activities win over proper planning and then I see downfall during the following week. And when tiredness or busyness take over and exercise doesn't happen I feel disappointed at myself. All of that to mark me with DEFEAT. Ohh how I loathe defeat! Defeat makes me feel like I am not worthy.  I tell myself all the reasons why I cannot achieve my health and fitness goals, I am upset with myself and I go down the spiral of guilt, insecurity and self-hate. And so the cycle begins. But defeat is a lie . The dictionary defines defeat as "a state of being worsted." And that's it: A state. A circumstance. A status. Much like the status in your Facebook page. A status can be deleted and rewritten! Good news: I can delete defeat! And that's my new outlook: I will not allow defeat to defin...